Merry Christmas

Well we had our office Christmas party this year. I elected not to participate. I did end up eating a few peanuts and broccoli, carrots and califlower. There was after all a few things that I could eat. Not enough that I felt the need to chip in money towards buying the meat/cheese tray or cook a nice vegan dish to share with everyone else. People always push me to eat just something. I'd rather not - I'd feel less obligated to cook or chip in. There were lots of vegetarian (non-vegan items) there as well. Sometimes I get really tired of being vegan. Not that I actually want to eat non-vegan foods. I just get tired of telling people I don't eat cake, cheese, etc. There was even a cake that someone said was made with coke (which would mean it was vegan right) - nope not a chance had marshmellows in the topping. Ugh... I'm just really sick of being "different." I know my lil' scooby gets tired of being different as well. She came home one day last week wanting me to tell her teacher that I was a vegan and that she is a vegetarian like her daddy. Well I didn't write that letter to her teacher that she wanted me to. I suppose I will get around to it. My hubby and I decided when I went vegan that we'd let her choose if she wanted to be vegan or vegetarian. We disuade her as much as possible from consuming any non-vegan (vegetarian) foods. I breastfed my daughter because I believe its not natural for human beings to consume the milk of another species. I believe that hormones in dairy and eggs cause an exceleration of puberty in children. That said I don't think a cupcake or slice of cheese pizza once in a while are detrimental to her health. Her choice to be vegan has to be her own. And based on her own firmly held beliefs that consuming animal products is wrong. I think she leans towards what her daddy believes.. "its okay as long as I'm not eating an actual animal I don't have to feel guilty." But if she is persistant about wanting to eat something we allow her to as long as it is vegetarian. I hate this compromise I make in my beliefs for her. I try to respect my husband's decision to be lacto-ovo-vegetarian as he respects my choice to be vegan. And at the end of the day if its okay for daddy to eat then she can make that choice too.

December 19, 2005

Today's lunch will consist of a smartdeli turkey slice rolled up and put in a container with hummus and baby carrots. A strawberry soy yoghurt and peanut butter crackers. With an apple-grape minute maid to drink.

The Nutcracker went off without a hitch. I am so glad that is over. I'm looking forward to a little well-deserved break from skating for the holidays:)

December 16, 2005

Well I was expecting a 2-hour delay this morning and after there was nothing on the news I threw together a peanut butter sandwich, soy yogurt and raisins.. just in time to see my daugther's school district run across the screen advertizing a school delay. So that is what she will be having. We were home yesterday and I let her have some veggie chickn nuggets (why can't I have these in my lunch box she said - well I think they'd be soggy by lunchtime I can't imagine they'd taste good), a baggy of baby carrots and some hummus for dipping (a great idea for the lunchbox:) if I do say so myself), and some yoghurt - which she eats some yoghurt practically everyday as her pediatrician said to give her 3 servings of dairy substitute a day.

Today's Incident

Scooby was stabbed in the palm of her hand today by a little girl after school. She was screaming and crying unrelentlessly when I picked her up. She wanted me to take her to the hospital - I took her home. I washed the wound out and poured peroxide on it. Then I called poison control. Okay I'm not stupid - I know pencils aren't made out of lead anymore. But my husband was working late and I have nobody smarter than me to ask for help. I had no clue how to get it out. The lady from poison control said to just let it work itself out over the next few days. All I could think is she is going to be falling on that hand a whole lot over the next few days and I need it to stop hurting her NOW. We are four days away from her first Nutcracker on Ice solo. After three years of figure skating and small parts in the show this is a big deal. She fell on it a few times at practice tonight. So I guess it is okay. We just need to survive the next few days.
Whether or not the little girl did it on purpose I don't know. Sometimes I am such a bad mom. I find myself having NO clue what to do. I just do the best I can - always the best that I can.

December 6, 2005

Monday's lunch consisted of baked beans, strawberry o'soy yoghurt and apple juice. Tuesday's lunch consisted of 3 smartdogs in blankets, peach o'soy yoghurt, raisins and apple-grape juice. Both repeats of previous meals. Overall scooby still seems to be eating much, much less food. She is going to the dentist tomorrow and maybe he'll pull that second loose tooth. I really think its hurting is what is causing her to eat so little right now. She's taking her vitamins everyday so hopefully she is getting all the nutrition she needs. Eventhough I pack fruit everday in her lunchbox it is returned to me each evening.. yesterday I had her eat her peaches before she could have dinner and tonight I will do the same with her orange slices but I don't expect her to eat it at school.